Welcome to my stop on the #IWantedYouToKnow blog tour – I believe I am the final stop! Thank you to the lovely people over at Agora Books for sending me this copy and welcoming me onto this blog tour! This may be a shorter review than you usually find on my blog, simply because it was so emotionally harrowing that I truly am finding it hard to summarise my thoughts.
It’s not often that you’ll find me crying at a book. But I sobbed my way through this one. I read this on my Kindle but, if I had a physical copy, it would be covered in mascara-filled tear stains. It was heart-wrenching. Having lost someone to cancer, I Wanted You To Know hit home in ways I could never expect. To see the aftershocks of death from the perspective of the sufferer is a point of view we’ve all been missing. We wonder how we’re going to go on without this person, but we don’t take into consideration that we can go on while they can’t.
Our main character, Jess, is told she has terminal breast cancer. Having only recently had a baby, of course, everything is thrown up in the air. She has to deal with the knowledge that her baby might not remember her, that her baby will grow up without her mother, that Jess herself won’t see her baby reach her first birthday. While we tend to think of the larger ramifications of death, it’s these little details that pull at the heartstrings. It’s the small things, like the fact that she can’t breastfeed her daughter because of the chemicals from chemotherapy; she can’t hold her daughter too often in her final days because she’s so weak.
Laura Pearson’s writing is so powerful. Though it reads basic in format, the underlying meaning screams at you through every word. She manages to express so much in so little, a feat many established authors still struggle with. You can see how everyone is affected by her illness: her best friend knowing she’ll have to play a more maternal role in Edie’s life; Edie’s father being thrown into the deep end with paternal duties; Jess’ mother dealing with losing her only child at the young age of 22.
When you take into consideration the author’s note at the start of the book, the whole thing becomes even more heartbreaking. To know that Pearson herself struggled through these thoughts is beyond comprehension for me. To know that all these thoughts and feelings were pretty much real.
Just as a final note, I want you all to use the hashtag #IWantedYouToKnow on Twitter and tell the world exactly what you want them to know.
I wanted you to know that this book broke my heart. Reply